Archive | February, 2015

Crossroads to Peanut Butter and Jelly

26 Feb

In life we all come to crossroads.  What decision do we make?  Do we take a left or a right?  Follow dreams or make a more sound decision.  I have come to that crossroad for me in a professional sense.

I have a masters degree in social work and have worked in that field for over 22 years.  I’ve done everything from working in foster care, child protective services, homeless shelters, home based therapy and psych hospitals.  I’ve work with individuals, families, groups, kids, adults, mentally ill and developmentally delayed people.  I’ve done a LOT.

My social work license is up for renewal.  And I don’t know what to do about it.  My last job as a social worker was working per diem in a psych hospital.  I resigned from the job in Jan.  I hadn’t been there in over 2 months because comedy was keeping me busy.  And to be honest even when I could go in I just didn’t want to.  I just had no desire to go in and deal with other people’s problems.  Social work is incredibly draining.  I felt like it sapped any creative spirit I had.

But this is the crossroad.  I NEVER want to do social work again.  I just have lost what little love I had for it.  You’d think it would be easier for me to say ‘Sayonara!’ to social work and never look back.  Sadly comedy is a financial crapshoot.  It is very streaky.  One minute your calendar is full, the next gigs are getting cancelled last minute.  There is no certainty.

So do I keep the social work license and play it safe? Or do I say ‘Fuck it’ and drop that anchor that is keeping me tied to something I no longer want to be a part of?  I am not a smart man and I have no delusions that I will get rich and famous in the comedy world but I still would like to eat something more than peanut butter and jelly sandwiches when I am on the road.  Maybe I should just get that job at Jimmy John’s and eat Turkey Tom on the daily?

There are no guarantees in life.